[she brings a hand up to rub at her face a little.
in a funny way it feels kind of nice to have someone tell her that he hurt her pretty bad. she's felt hurt. she's just been struggling with whether or not she's allowed to feel that way.]
... He didn't want to be alone. [and god does she fucking relate to that, so bad.] He was told. I can't be mad.
But I - but we didn't... [she just trails off, almost frustrated.] Datz, before I was here, I didn't have anything like you guys. At all. I didn't have you, or anybody like Ace or Reigen. Before I got here I was on my way to die.
[she says, quietly. she rubs at her face again, with a little sniff, and exhales heavily.]
It happens a lot. [i can't remember if i ever gave you the memory that gives context for this but it's fine] I was so sick of it happening that I thought about just killing someone to get put on trial. Not even be sneaky about it.
[she didn't, though. obviously she didn't, and it's because the rest of their little ragtag team offered their hands out to her.]
Man. [ winces and shakes his head, looking back up at the flag again. ] I'm really sorry you felt that way... but glad you didn't. Glad you're still here.
[ though he sure wishes there weren't so few others who still are. ]
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in a funny way it feels kind of nice to have someone tell her that he hurt her pretty bad. she's felt hurt. she's just been struggling with whether or not she's allowed to feel that way.]
... He didn't want to be alone. [and god does she fucking relate to that, so bad.] He was told. I can't be mad.
But I - but we didn't... [she just trails off, almost frustrated.] Datz, before I was here, I didn't have anything like you guys. At all. I didn't have you, or anybody like Ace or Reigen. Before I got here I was on my way to die.
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[ he blinks, not sure what to say to that. that's... oof. less hopeless than ace already being dead, but damn.
he frowns. ]
So, like... you finally got something important and then had it ripped away again, I guess.
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[she says, quietly. she rubs at her face again, with a little sniff, and exhales heavily.]
It happens a lot. [i can't remember if i ever gave you the memory that gives context for this but it's fine] I was so sick of it happening that I thought about just killing someone to get put on trial. Not even be sneaky about it.
[she didn't, though. obviously she didn't, and it's because the rest of their little ragtag team offered their hands out to her.]
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[ though he sure wishes there weren't so few others who still are. ]
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[she shifts, and moves a little closer to him. the smoke is slowly receding, at least.]
Sorry. I know that's - I know that was heavy. [she seems kind of embarrassed, but.] I'm glad I'm still here too. Even if stuff sucks.
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[ ... ]
He didn't really have anyone here he was quite as close to as that, right?
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[a pause.]
I don't know. Nico and Will, maybe.